Everything's finally come to the surface

I am a people person. I thrive on the company of others. Too many days by myself starts to get to me. Today, the past month of being alone in Chapmanville finally came to a head. I'm not sure what exactly caused it, but I went to work about 30 minutes early to eat, and as I was sitting there, I found it difficult to choke back the tears.
I miss my boyfriend. I miss my friends in Morgantown. I miss the girls/guys I worked with. Generally, I just miss being around people that know me.
Now, I always miss someone, but growing up 5 hours away from the rest of my family has given me this way of dealing with it...I just don't. I guess that's the best way to put it. I don't typically consciously miss anyone. It's just an emotion that's always been there, but doesn't come out very often. I think I'm just used to it honestly. I don't necessarily think it's because I don't deal with it...I just know how to deal with it I guess. I don't know!
Anyway...once I talked to my friend Heather at work (we've practically grown up together) I felt MUCH better. Just being around that ONE person that knows me (even though we were never super close friends...we have TONS of memories together) made me ok again. *I know girls are emotional, and this post is nothing but that.*
I just need to find something to do. Not necessarily to occupy my time, or distract myself, but here's my typical day:
I sleep in *as late as possible*
take a shower
go to work evening shift
come home
talk to Bryan (which has been a lot of silence on my end because I do nothing, sorry babe)
go to bed
repeat.

I sleep in as late as I can because I have nothing else to do. This morning, I got up, went for a super short jog *it's WAY hard to jog when you haven't done it in years* ate breakfast, showered, then sat around until it was time to go to work.

I'm so used to being so busy all the time that this is KILLING me. I don't need to be as busy as I was *by ANY means* and I have learned how to relax since graduation, but this is the complete opposite of being busy. Bryan used to talk to me all the time about how I always needed something to do and I didn't know how to relax. Well, that was VERY true and I'm VERY thankful for him pointing that out because now I'm ok with laying around and just resting. HOWEVER, after 2 months of that...it's time to find something to do. My emotions need it. I know that might sound like a dumb statement, but it's very true. AND did I mention that 95% of the time I'm at my house...I'm alone, with kitties because my mom works 2 jobs.

I was in Morgantown last week, and it was the best I've felt since I've been home. I spent the majority of time with my roommate, Brandon, and Shane (three of my favorite people) and it did WONDERS for my soul. I have to head back up the day after Mother's Day to get the rest of my stuff and help clean the house because Sommer is moving out. I can't wait to be back there!

Anyway, this is just a bunch of ramblings, but I needed to say it all.
I feel much better!

American Idol and Bob Evans

Hello folks!
I know it's been awhile since I've actually posted anything substantial and I appologize for that. All I do these days is work, and nothing worth mentioning happens there. This is a fun 2 topic blog! WOOHOO! American Idol banter is in the beginning, followed by the differences I've noticed between the Morgantown Bobs and the Logan Bobs. Enjoy!

Tonight, I've decided to voice my American Idol opinion. Take it or leave it!
Each season, I think I get more disappointed in this show...
I don't think I've actually watched an entire season from beginning to end. The entire process drags on too much for me. The 4 weeks of bad auditions; the long, boring, hour long results show; things like that. Having been to audition before (years ago for season 4) I KNOW how much great talent they get rid of in the beginning phases just to up the amount of goof balls for the audition shows. If they actually let through the talented people *I'm not EVEN considering myself, so don't think that please* this would actually be a great competition!

This season, I'm a little bored. I think they are all great singers, but only one of them has shown any type of versatility...David Cook. And he only showed that this past week during Andrew Loyd Webber week! He's a rocker, but he took on "Music of the Night" from "Phantom of the Opera", and actually sang in the style it was written for! He didn't make it a rock ballad and it proved what a great vocalist he really is!
Syesha finally looked like she was having fun this week! I thought she sounded great, looked great, and was very entertaining! I've never heard the song from "Starlight Express" that she did, but it was a great choice.
Aside from those 2, the rest have still just stayed the same. They pick different songs, but sing them in the exact same way. I really like all of their voices, but isn't this show supposed to showcase your versatility!? *shrug*

Those are just a few quick thoughts on the contestants!
As far as the show goes...how much longer do you think they'll keep this up? It's such a good concept for entertainment, but I'm a little frustrated with the judges. Simon can stay, but I feel like they need to get people in there who can actually give criticisms that will help the contestants. Randy and Paula very rarely provide that kind of feed back. I also would LOVE to see a vocal coach, or someone that knows a bit about the voice and how it works, on the judges panel. I know that 90% of Americans watching and voting don't care about what the singers are doing technically, but for those of us that do, it'd be nice.

Anyway, that's my little Idol rant. I don't know if there will be another one, but you never know. Since I just sit around my house when I'm not at work, you might get another!





And for the Bob Evans fun I'm sure you've all been dying to know about.
I don't mean to compare the Logan Bobs with the Morgantown Bobs, but I worked at the one up north for almost 4 years straight...so similarities and differences are noticed and here is a small list of those things:
* we do a LOT more carry out here than up there.
I'm serious. We have to have a person on Carry Out specifically for the majority of the day because it gets so busy over there that the servers would KILL someone if it was on pick-up.
* in general, the manners here are not so great...
I'm not going to go into details because then I'll get worked up, but it's WAY harder to work down here because of the constant feeling of being under appreciated.
* Working evenings here is MUCH better than working evenings up there.
I used to HATE working evenings in Morgantown because I was the oldest person on the server line (at 23), we never made much money, I had been there the longest...including longer than the night shift manager, and many more reasons.
* The dinner rush is MUCH later down here.
Seriously, we'll be dead from 5-7 (in the Mo, that was a busiser time) and we'll get hit with a rush around 715 *sometimes later* that doesn't stop until we lock the doors. Thursday night, I didn't leave until 10 after 10 because people just kept coming in...we close at 9
* I've already sold more desserts down here than I did my entire 4 year stint in Morgantown.
* We go through WAY more rolls down here and much less banana nut bread.
* The first questions one was asked up north where typically, "are you a student, what year, what's your major" etc...here, I was asked 3 times my first day, "do you have any kids" haha it was cute
* I get super excited to see kids I used to know because I get to catch up with them and find out what they are up to. It's been 5 years since graduation, and most are finishing up school (if they haven't do so already) so it's cool to chat with them in this transitional part of their lives
* We don't really have rules down here...like we can eat and drink on the server line...people will stay onthe phone all day if they can (some of them), if I'm hungry, I can eat a roll in front of my managers and no one will say a word. Up in the Mo, NONE of those things would have happened EVER! (I'd actually prefer it that way here...)


So there's my list of things!
I can't say which one I like more. Actually, yes I can. I liked working at the one up north more. I LOVE waiting tables, but when I was busy up there, I didn't get flustered because of the demeanor of my customers. Here, it's really hard to get super busy, and have people treat you like dirt. And even if they leave a good tip, it doesn't matter. Money doesn't fix feeling under rated.

Anyway!
There you go!
have a nice day!

Theatre Survey

LAST SHOW ADDED TO YOUR RESUME:
Pamina from Mozart's "The Magic Flute" in scenes
but full show...Poulenc's "Dialogue of the Carmilites"

LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR:
opera scenes

LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION:
"Dearest Mama" from the Ballad of Baby Doe

WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW:
"Fiddler on the Roof" when I was a junior in high school


HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO?:
not a big one! :D


HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO?
tons of them

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW?
maybe!? I don't remember



HAVE YOU BEEN TO NEW YORK?
Yes



HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA?:
yup


HAVE YOU BEEN TO LONDON?:
No but I've always wanted to go.



WHAT'S THE SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION?:
Knowing the roles in the show, and the fact that I'm the tallest person in the room...that usually means I'll be stuck in the background. haha



WHAT'S THE BEST PART OF AN AUDITION?
knowing it's over



NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN:
"The Wizard of Oz"



NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS:
"Footloose"


WHAT ARE YOU AUDITIONING FOR NEXT?
Not Annie! :D


DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS?:
some of them!!!




ON A SCALE OF 1-10, HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID?
I've never been paid for a role, so it's not! :D



SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE ON STAGE? I swallowed a bug once in "Footloose" and another time, during my Shakespeare scenes for class...my skirt definitely unhooked and fell down in front of the entire acting studio...HOWEVER, it did it in rehearsals the night before, so I was smart enough to wear shorts underneath! :D



EVER BEEN NAKED ON STAGE?:
NO!!!!!!!!!!!



BEEN KILLED?:
ya know...I haven't!



PLAYED DRUNK ON STAGE?:
nope


PLAYED SOMEONE HALF YOUR AGE?:
nah



PLAYED SOMEONE TWICE YOUR AGE?:
I don't think so



FIRED A GUN?
Nope! I, thankfully, never was on stage in the Aracoma Story.



DRIVEN A CAR?
No



BEEN DRENCHED?
No.





BEEN IN A DREAM SEQUENCE?
Does the Fruma Sarah dream in Fiddler count!?



BEEN KISSED?
Not really. haha




I miss the theatre!

Matt Pillor

Hey,
Today, I got news that a kid I went to college with died in his sleep last night. No one knows details at this time. The Creative Arts Center was kind of like a small high school, so you knew everyone in your class, even if you weren't friends with them. That is how I knew Matt. We had a few classes together early on, but as our programs got more specific (voice for me and oboe for him), we stopped having classes together. He was always a very nice guy and an excellent musician.
I am just asking you to please pray for his friends, family, and girlfriend of 4+ years, Elisa.
Thanks so much.

TV shows!

This was taken from Ms. Hager. I'm a little bored at the house today, if you can't tell! :D

1. Bold the shows you've watched every episode of
2. Italic the shows you've seen at least one episode of
3. Post your answers

50. Quantum Leap
49. Prison Break
48. Veronica Mars
47. Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
46. Sex & The City

45. Farscape
44. Cracker
43. Star Trek
42. Only Fools and Horses
41. Band of Brothers

40. Life on Mars
39. Monty Python's Flying Circus
38. Curb Your Enthusiasm
37. Star Trek: The Next Generation
36. Father Ted

35. Alias
34. Frasier
33. CSI: Las Vegas
32. Babylon 5
31. Deadwood

30. Dexter
29. ER
28. Fawlty Towers
27. Six Feet Under
26. Red Dwarf

25. Futurama
24. Twin Peaks
23. The Office UK
22. The Shield
21. Angel

20. Blackadder
19. Scrubs
18. Arrested Development
17. South Park
16. Doctor Who

15. Heroes
14. Firefly
13. Battlestar Galactica
12. Family Guy
11. Seinfeld

10. Spaced
09. The X-Files
08. The Wire
07. Friends
06. 24

05. Lost
04. The West Wing
03. The Sopranos
02. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
01. The Simpsons

Little Red Riding Hill.

This is really funny. Read it.

Politically-correct Fairy Tale